Williams(i)
20 in accordance with my eager expectation and hope that I shall never disgrace myself, but that now as always hitherto, by my all-conquering courage, whether by living or dying, Christ will be honored in me.
21 For to me living means Christ and dying brings gain.
22 But if to keep on living here means fruit from my labor, I cannot tell which to choose.
23 I am hesitating between two desires, for I long to depart and to be with Christ, for that is far, far better,